i think karma is working...

i was thinking about getting a snickerdoodle this am. the cafe usually is out after 9, so i went in before work. scanned the shelves & didn't see any. fortunately (karma-ickly?), there was a little bit of a line so i actually looked at the very bottom...there were the day olds. snickerdoodles! so not only did i get 1- i got 2; for the price of 1 (being "day olds").

i needed to schedule a dentist appointment. which means finding another dentist.
last one i had totally lied saying they were in my network, but weren't & i got billed,not worth a fight since the service was provided & the hygienist was the best i've ever had]
my guy before him, lets just say the last appointment i had about a year ago really had me not impressed.
i called one i found online, close to home with a couple good reviews. the lady who answered the phone was obviously rushed with something/one else, but was very professional. she took my name & info, called metlife to make sure they could take me, then called me back to let me know. she was aware xrays wouldn't be covered, due to the last place. which was good because: 1) they wouldn't try to make me get (& pay for) them knowing they weren't covered 2) i HAVE the xrays from the last place. they were sooo fancy there, they did them on digital - the whole mouth. i made them email it to me. i now have a jpeg to bring with me to the next place (episode) current xrays...see, i made sure & got something for the extra $$ they made me spend there. ;) i'm not that much of a push over.
appointment scheduled for next month.

i went to pick up my zomig for the month. got home & took them out of the bag. i started shaking, squealing, crying & stammering all at the same time. N was like what the fuck? finally, i was able to get out that the insurance company had finally ok'd me getting 9 pills a month!!!! for my $60 - top'o'the line copay. i've never had more then 6 allowed since it was introduced (about 10 years ago). this means that i should have just enough to cover me every month, without having to try to hoard some or get a couple of bad days with no pills.

good stuff.

where'd that week go?where's trinie?

so last week was migraine week. i actually made it to work EVERY day! i went through 7 zomig. i get 6 a month and my doc was nice enough to hook me up with a sample 2 pack--so if you're doing the math, i have 1 pill left for 3 weeks. she writes the script for 9 but my insurance only covers 6 pills-they always have, never more. still have years to go before zomig is available in generic.

we had some sad news last week. on monday trinie (J&S's cat) ran out their front door. they've got signs up and i posted on craigs list. unfortunately they had to go out of town on saturday until this saturday. so we brought monkey to stay the week with us. he's doing good. our cats are really mellow with other cats. hooka's like a wise mom cat and weezie could care less. weezie just cares about getting her attention. (she's spoiled). I left the upstairs window & deck open so if trinie can get back, he could get in. there's food and water. plus i go up and get the mail everyday and check for him. V did some animal communicating with him last nite and supposedly he's ok but lost and hungry. so that was good news. i'm going to try to communicate to. N went to he shelter in HB and didn't see him. he was so sad when he got home about all the cats and dogs that have no homes. i get physically upset myself when i picture animals in shelters.

so please think positive thoughts! my bro's cat was lost in the winter and he got a call a few weeks later from a few miles away and there was thunder!

week in review...

tuesday migraine hit. hat conference with my boss where i proceeded to throw=up in the trash bin my cream cheese and triscuit lunch. she looked scared and i waved garbbled for her to take the phone and i was going to the bathroom. when i "finished up", she was nice enough to let me leave 30 mins. early.

wednesday migraine continues and the receptionist is back from baby leave. i couldn't have called out sick at all since i had to set-up my desk as well. i wore my sunglasses inside most of the day so i broke them into my headache routine. at the O they were very understanding. they are getting there here. of course i'm new too.

thursday i couldn't take it any more and called out. i hope i won't me in too much trouble on monday but there's nothing really i physically could have done to get to work. we had a 4th potluck and i had signed up for dessert. N even had made the cherry flan for me the nite before so it was ready...but i couldn't hang. so i slept on and off, puked a bit and petted the cats. the treximet isn't working any more unfortunately.

fortunately i had friday off work already so i was in bed all day again, but starting to finally feel better.

the 4th i was much better. we went up to J&S to watch the fireworks from their roof. it was really cool but windy! next year i will layer properly and we'll set up chairs or something in the daylight. B slept through all the noise. we had sloppy joes, crunchy potatoes and tried tuna (after S mircowaved it all the way cooked). J made the best blueberry crisp I had today. it is so freaking good.

off to work tomorrow. start my new 9a,-6pm MWF, 8am-5pm TTh schedule. i told them i have to babysit on t & th which i may for the next couple weeks. hopefully i'll be able to get back to 8-5 soon. i like it much better! i'm going to stop and get donuts out of sheer guilt for not getting my dessert to the potluck on thursday. if the drop-off woulda been easy, N woulda done it but it's a bitch.

have a good week! another long one. ugg!

i meet...treximet...

today. treximet is a new migraine pill that is a combo of naproxen and immitrex. i've been taking naproxen about as long as i've been getting headaches [over 13 yrs.]. sometimes it will lessen the pain on a full blown migraine. sometimes it stops one from starting. the other drug in this pill is immitrex. immitrex i actually started on back in the early migraine days. my tolerance goes up so fast so soon i was on the shot which hurt so bad since it was spring loaded. the bruises were awesome. once the shot stopped working as well i went to it's stronger sister zomig. i've been on zomig pretty steadily for the past 9 years--when i have health insurance of course. the first patents don't run out until 2013! and 9 pills are about $680 out of pocket with no insurance.

our friends in FL sent me an email with a link to the treximet website. on there they have a coupon for a FREE 9 pill prescription!!! i promptly emailed my doctor [even though i haven't had health insur for a year i still try to keep in contact, and occasionally beg for some samples of any migraine med they can spare. they've been really nice about helping me when i haven't had insur. for so long] Dr. called me back and let me know she not only wrote the RX for treximet so i can try to use the coupon, but said she'd leave some samples of zomig up front. that was tooo nice! i wrote her a thank you card i'll leave too. even if there's only 2 pills and they're the 2.5 mg instead of the 5mg, that still means maybe 1 day of no headache.

i'll let you know how the treximet works. hopefully not to soon. :)
wish me luck at the pharmacy. i hope that goes smoothly with the coupon.

what the F@cK is going on??

i know it's the economy et al. but this is starting to freak me out. i've applied for over 25 jobs that i have qualifications for and got NO calls back. nada. neyt. i've never had that lack of response before. even last october when i was searching i went on interviews after only a week of sending out resumes.

i've re-wrote my resume and cover letter. i customize when i'm sending my res as best i can on the cover letter. i'm smart enough dammit. (little stuart smalley) but seriously!! i'm almost at my whits-end. after this week i'll have to try for fast food or something..where i have no qualifications. that'll be part time probably so they don't have to pay health insur (I LOVE HOW COMPANIES CAN GET AWAY WITH THAT) and it'll be min. wage .. about $7.50/hr. about half of what i usually make an hour.

anyone have any leads?

then to make matters more stressful i keep getting knocked down with migraines. i'm completely out of my god meds (zomig) and got my last free single pill of maxault from the doctors office (since they know i haven't had health insur for almost a year..they wold try to help a little but hey, they're not making money off giving me free meds ya know).

then i feel like a total lazy person since the only thing i can do to tolerate it is crawling in bed and turning off the lights, trying to make bargains with god about stopping it or practicing meditation with no success. i feel like i look like i'm lazy and just layin around all day & nite--but i can't move if i want. i'm not tired, but that's how it looks since i'm in bed all day and nite. so frustrating knowing there is a beautiful pill that helps me so much that i cant get without insur. they run about 40 bucks a pill!

other project for this week is trying to lower my CC amount due. i was fine when the card was with wamu but chase raised it 50% from my previous amount due. i dread dealing with that but i've got to. can't just not pay it. J comes back tomorrow nite. the kitties will be so happy to have her and B back! i can't wait to see how much B has grown.

how it feels now..

i found this picture online. i believe it was in an ad around the 1800s. it shows demons as the cause of head pain..similar to Egyptian beliefs. this skeleton on the side reminds me of death. i know it sounds depressing...but those of us that get migraines think about any option to make the pain stop. if you've never had one or don't know someone who has them...you have NO idea.

the saddest part is, society names lots of headaches "migraines" that aren't and wrongly advertise brand name pills with the word "migraine" added on. hahaha. if those work for you...you DON'T have migraines. just read the ingredients on the back. they are the same as the regular or max strength of regular headaches. it's so sad people really don't understand these.

migraines are a beast all unto themselves. i've been blessed with them since i was about 18 years old. it started when i went to college. i hoped it was stress or maybe the local slaughterhouse whose smell would drift through town. it was neither of those things. since i first had them i've been seeing doctors. common mis-conceptions about migraine and migraine sufferers:- can't you just take an advil? if that was the case it wouldn't be a migraine!

i get this so often it's really annoying- can't you go to the doctor and they'll give you a magic pill? ummm no. there aren't too many pills available for migraine sufferers. basically there are 3 preventative types of pills to try. 1) seizure medication 2) anti-depressants 3) high-cholesterol pills. there are other pills to take once the migraine hits and you cross your fingers and pray on. i've tried many brands of all types with no luck. if i have health insurance, i can get 6 zomigs a month but without insurance, 6 pills are over $150 a month!

whenever i get "inspired" and want to draw my pain...all of a sudden i'm blank. i can see it in my mind but when my hand holds my oil pastels...it all goes away.

ANd to make matters worse...google won't let me hard return on this post so it reads like a giant cluster-fuck.